Here it is – at last! My lovely little book has arrived from the printers.
It started in 2009 with an art journalling experiment while I was struggling to cope with my mother’s declining health and her increasing anxiety. Ten years later, I looked over the drawings and and found, to my surprise, that they were powerful reminders of the life lessons I had learned. I began to post them onto this blog along with my reflections on these lessons.
Fast forward through the 2020/21 Covid-19 pandemic – with lots of time to reflect and write – and now I am delighted to have my Life Lessons in the form of a beautiful book.
I have sent these drawings and musings out into the world, hoping that they might encourage others and maybe even relieve some suffering. If you would like a copy of this book please email me at email@example.com
I have given away the first 100 copies. Another shipment is on its way.
They will be $25 CAD each, plus postage. Please email me if you would like a book: CronesChronicles@gmail.com
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about curiosity – curious about curiosity, you might say. I have begun to notice how curiosity, has led me into understanding and then made it easier to access compassion.
The first way I noticed the benefits of curiosity was when I learned about becoming an observer of my own feelings. Once I began to observe my feelings objectively (as much as is possible for me), I was able to see them as a phenomenon that I was experiencing. I began to Inquire into the significance of those feelings, rather than getting hooked by them and going down an emotional rabbit hole.
When negative emotions occur, and a soon as I remember to detach from them, I breathe and observe, waiting for them to pass like the clouds. Often that is all that is needed. Other times, the feelings persist. That is when curiosity is so helpful.
What is this feeling? I see that anger is happening. What is behind that feeling? Is it hurt, or embarrassment, or fear? Is it about what is happening now, or is it something that has been triggered by past experiences?Why am I experiencing this feeling right now? Is it really because of what my partner said or did, or is there something else going on?
This attitude of curiosity about my thoughts and feelings has increased my understanding and compassion for myself. That is a beautiful thing to experience.
The other way I have noticed the benefits of curiosity is regarding the behaviour of others. This applies to loved ones as well as strangers.
What might be my partner’s state of mind? What are they feeling and thinking? What motivated them to say or do that? I see that anger is happening. What is behind that feeling? Is it hurt, or embarrassment, or fear? Is it about what is happening now, or is it something that has been triggered by past experiences?
When strangers behave in a disturbing way, can I be curious? Rather than jumping to negative assumptions can I wonder about other explanations? When an irate driver shows road rage, can I wonder about their emotional turmoil and feel compassion?
Try to cultivate curiosity. It can lead you to better understanding and greater compassion for yourself, your loved ones, and strangers too. This is the beautiful alchemy of mindfulness – turning pain into compassion.
What a weird holiday season this is! Sometimes it feels like this pandemic will go on forever. My mind is so full of questions about the future – when? What if? What will…? Questions about the spring, and questions about tomorrow and next week…
When I sit still and listen in- paying attention to the chatter that’s going on in my head – I can see that some of it is utter nonsense and the rest is just a waste of energy. My Monkey mind.
Monkey Mind gets especially busy at Christmas time, producing all kinds of emotional baggage from the past. Family occasions, whether in person or via Zoom can bring up old tapes in our heads – so many monkeys!
Here’s the thing – you can observe the monkeys without feeding them. Don’t encourage them or they will never leave you alone!
The trick is to see your monkey-like thoughts for what they are – a mirage – without substance. You can acknowledge your thoughts without believing them or buying into them. Try just observing them while consciously breathing, then watch as they pass like clouds on a breezy day. Then carry on with the task in front of you, living in the peace of the present.
Peace and love to you all as we close out this remarkable year.
This morning I was at the dentist getting my annual teeth cleaning. It’s hard to relax when someone is poking and scraping in your mouth, still I tried. Just out of curiousity I would peacefully lay my relaxed hands on my tummy and silently follow my breath. Then, every few minutes, I would check back in with my body and find my hands clenched tightly together. Oops! Relax and begin again.
Clenched hands, clenched jaw, shoulders up around my ears, these are some of the ways I carry tension in my body. These are stress signals to my mind. The body doesn’t lie, but sometimes I am just not listening.
Make sure you check in regularly with your body. How is it feeling? Where do you carry stress and tension? Can you let it go?
Try to connect with your inner sensations, deliberately and respectfully, without judgment – like a good friend.
Knowledge and Understanding are important building blocks for personal growth, but they are not the whole picture.
Experience and Feelings are what gives life its richness.
The head and the heart – both are needed to create a balanced life of mindfulness.
We all spend a lot of time “in our heads”. We fill our lives with a constant stream of inner and outer talk and busyness.
Try interrupting your thoughts for a moment, to take in your feelings. Can you feel without labelling and thinking about your feelings? Ah – that’s a challenge.
Turning your attention to your breath can help you to hit the pause button on your thought train. Thoughts are not bad – they’re just not the whole of experience of being alive. Give yourself the opportunity to embrace the space in between your thoughts. The space where you can absorb the present moment and enjoy its beauty
So you finally decided to try meditation. Everywhere you turn you hear about its benefits: reduced stress, increased energy, focus, clarity, lower blood pressure, world peace! You sit down, assume the position and turn your gaze inward…expecting a pleasant flood of peace and clarity. Instead you find chaos and confusion. WHAT!?
It’s a bit like opening Pandora’s Box. Instead of treasure you find all of the thoughts and emotions that you have been studiously avoiding all this time, through distraction and busyness. Be assured – those feelings and thoughts have been present in your inner world all along. You have just been ignoring them.
Do you stay or do you go? Staying takes courage and trust and patience.
First it is important to understand that this kind of mental confusion and noise is normal. There’s even a name for it – Monkey Mind. With time and practise you can gradually calm your monkeys and experience some of that calm and inner glow that you were hoping for.
Through regular practice – even 5 minutes a day – you will learn to observe your inner world and let it gradually settle. Calm and clarity will come, in time, from inside.
These days of Covid’s 2nd wave are teaching me lessons that I need to learn, many of them for the ump-teenth time. I am very fortunate to be healthy and comfortably retired, so I am not trying to balance working from home with childcare, eldercare or health concerns. And I am not worrying about where my next rent payment will be coming from. Thus, I have the privilege of time to read and ponder. And so I do – read and ponder.
Lately my reading has taken me through Christophe Andre’s beautiful book, “Looking at Mindfulness”, (photo in last post). Now for the pondering: When a book strikes a chord in my heart I am eager to absorb its message rather than let it just flow over me and then disappear. For me, the most effective method that I have found is illustrated journaling.
Here’s my method:
I read a chapter, underlining the words that seem to express the idea best. I stay alert to the messages that are there to help me on my journey.
I transcribe those underlined passages into my journal, commenting and summarizing as I go. I use a large-ish journal with lots of room and without lines so that I feel free to doodle, underline, add arrows and circles, diagram or draw – whatever comes to my mind or my hand. I write and draw with a pen or pencil that I love. As I write I try to focus on each word, enjoying the feeling of forming the letters carefully, and the feel of the pen on the paper. This is a mindfulness practice of its own. Of course there are also times when scribbling and scratching is the right thing for the day.
If an image presents itself to me I will sketch out the idea, looking for a way of illustrating the concept. Then, when I am ready, I will copy the sketch onto better paper and dab in some watercolour paint.
By the time I have been through this process, I have usually absorbed the concept pretty thoroughly. Now, through this blog, I have added a step as I post the sketches and then write about them.
My hope is that these postings will help to make the ideas more accessible to others, especially for the visual learners out there. I expect that this new collection will be a future resource for me, and perhaps others, when in need of reminders of lessons learned. I am very sure that I will need reminding.
(My previous illustrated journal- Life Lessons- can be found at Croneschronicles.com.)
Lately I have been reading this lovely and inspiring book – “Looking at Mindfulness” by Christophe Andre. I’d like to share some of the ideas he writes about, because I think he has so beautifully clarified why we need mindfulness so badly.
Christophe warns of the pollution of the mind that we are all exposed to in our contemporary world. He calls it “psychotoxic materialism”. Our attention is the number one commodity for sale today, and bids for it are everywhere. Ads on buses, windows, billboards, cellphones, Youtube, Facebook, notifications, bells, alarms, and a thousand other interruptions.
What is all this racket doing to our minds? Our attention is constantly being stolen from us- captured, drawn away, interrupted, segmented and fragmented.
And worse: we become addicted to this flashy, noisy and easy to digest messaging. We become unable to have anything but the shortest of thoughts of our own; especially thoughts that require introspection and sustained attention. YIKES!
The results of this polluted mental environment are stress, mental fragmentation, anxiety, boredom and circular rumination.
The antidote? Calm, slowness and continuity.
Christophe advises us to “draw on the healing powers of simplicity, calm, and single tasking…
*act calmly and gently
*do one thing at a time
*restore yourself with a dose of doing nothing
*unplug as an act of freedom”
Such simple advice and yet so challenging. That is the nature of addiction.
I have come to realize that I am almost always doing two things, or even 3 things at once.
Reading a book while eating a meal. Listening to the radio while I drive. Sewing while I watch a show. It’s like I’m afraid of what my mind will do if left without being spoon-fed with external material. God forbid that I might experience some quiet, rest or ( horrors)…boredom!
So I’ve decided to start an experiment. Sundays will be single-tasking days for me; kind of like an old fashioned Sabbath. I tried it out last weekend, with mixed success. I’m hoping that the dose of calm will give me a taste, and draw me towards wanting more during the week. I guess we’ll see.